Updated: May 29, 2019
“My name is Jayna, I have scoliosis which is just curvature of the spine rather than it being straight. I found out when I was about 12 years old and I was actually suggested that I get surgery to correct it. It affects my posture and visually isn’t very attractive. My right shoulder blade sticks out much further than my left and with no shirt on my spine looks like an “S”. It caused me neck and back pain for years. The pain was even worse during both pregnancies with the extra weight. Sitting in uncomfortable chairs with no support for too long becomes painful as well as standing for long periods of time, lifting heavy objects, and sleeping in certain positions.
I got made fun of for it, was even called “Brokeback”. People would ask why I walked and stood a certain way, was even accused of intentionally trying to stick what little butt I do have out to make myself attractive to guys. It made me very self-conscious and for the longest would affect what I chose to wear (especially during the summer) because I did not want to wear tighter clothing or styles of clothing that made it more obvious.
During the deliverance services, I prayed over it a lot and told that pain it had to go. It got so bad with my pregnancy with Yana that I would wake up every morning in pain. I knew I couldn’t deal with it for the rest of my life. Since praying and declaring it over my life, I have not had any physical pain since. However, those emotional scars are still there. At one point I hated to look at myself in the mirror because of how different my body looked and I always feared that wherever I went people noticed and were judging me. Even though it took a while, I now can look at myself in a mirror and be confident about the way I look.”